Little Orange Dragon

I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change
An August summer night
Soldiers passing by
Listening to the wind of change
The world is closing in
Did you ever think
That we could be so close, like brothers
The future’s in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away (dream away)
In the wind of change
Walking down the street
Distant memories
Are buried in the past forever
I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams (share their dreams)
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night (the glory night)
Where the children of tomorrow dream away (dream away)
In the wind of change (the wind of change)
The wind of change
Blows straight into the face of time
Like a stormwind that will ring the freedom bell
For peace of mind
Let your balalaika sing
What my guitar wants to say
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams (share their dreams)
With you and me (with you and me)
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away (dream away)
In the wind of change (in the wind of change)

Standin’ at the door of the Pink Flamingo cryin’ in the rain,
It was a kind of so-so love
And I’m gonna make sure it doesn’t happen again,
You and I had to be the standing joke of the year,
You were a runaround, a lost and found and not for me, I feel,
Take your hands off me, hey,
I don’t belong to you, you see,
And take a look in my face, for the last time,
I never knew you, you never knew me,
Say hello goodbye,
Say hello and wave goodbye
We tried to make it work, you in a cocktail skirt
And me in a suit but it just wasn’t me,
You’re used to wearing less,
And now your life’s a mess, so insecure you see,
I put up with all the scenes,
This is one scene that’s goin’ to be played my way
Take your hands off me, hey,
I don’t belong to you, you see,
And take a look in my face, for the last time,
I never knew you, you never knew me,
Say hello goodbye,
Say hello and wave goodbye
Say hello and wave goodbye
Under the deep red light
I can see the make-up slidin’ down,
Well, hey little girl you will always make up
So take off that unbecoming frown,
As for me, well, I’ll find someone
Who’s not goin’ cheap in the sales,
A nice little housewife, who’ll give me a steady life
And not keep going off the rails,
Take your hands off me, hey,
I don’t belong to you, you see,
And take a look in my face, for the last time,
I never knew you, you never knew me,
Say hello goodbye,
Say hello and wave goodbye
Say hello and wave goodbye
Say hello and wave goodbye
Wave goodbye
Say hello and wave goodbye
Say hello, wave goodbye
Goodbye
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
We were born before the wind
Who are we to understand
We were born before the wind
Say goodbye
Through the rain, hail, sleet, and snow
Say goodbye
Get on the train, the train, the train
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
In the wind and the rain now darling
Say goodbye
In the wind and the rain now darling

And she stepped out of the shadow of illusion and into the world.

I am here, this is real, and there is still magic.

No fancy equipment, just an iPhone. Somehow something stuck me about viewing the magical eclipse so far above while standing across the street from the 7-11. When I’m 60 during the next supermoon eclipse I’ll always remember this one, being with friends and family and laughing, eating pot roast and pie, talking about grandma Lily my rebel grandma who fought in the 1916 uprising and how the world was changing, as the teenagers departed to their video games and phones. Back in my day…

The magical music filled the air and she sat on the toadstool as tears rolled down her cheeks. Old tears, tears of loneliness, tears of sorrow. So much that she pushed into her soul and held there for her small little one.

And although it was the anger that lead her here, really her body was just full of this old sadness. He had given her a path in and when you’re giving a gift, even a painful one, she knew that you still needed to accept it.

If she was ever going to be whole again, she would need to cradle this pain, honor the anger, and love the joy while not letting fear stop her on this path. So she sent up her thanks and returned to her power of storytelling, to bear the pain of emotion and share it so her heart could stay open.

All the times that I cried
keeping all the things I knew inside
It’s hard, but it’s harder to ignore it
If they were right I’d agree
But it’s them they know, not me
-Cat Stevens

Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
-Leonard Cohen

And they came and filled her heart with love.From this love, she was strengthened and she realized she wasn’t along because this was family.

She turned to look up to god and realized he had been there all along, looking down on her, just waiting for her to catch up. And the moon came out of the clouds, shining its light down on her and she laughed and laughed as she realized this joy had been here that whole time and she had caged herself. But now the gate was open and joy came flooding her, all the joy she hadn’t been living.

That night she curled up under the large wise cedar tree, dreaming of hope and family and what would come the next day. Every day new wonders appeared to her, new miracles, new blessings, and those emerged who had been there the whole time.

The world was open to anything and it wanted her to trust that it was full of magic to be discovered.

Because when you betray the people you love, when you make them see the worst parts of you, what you’ve done changes everything. There’s no going back. You’ve shattered the bonds you worked so hard to forge. And the stronger those bonds once were, the more difficult they are to put back together… If they can be repaired at all.
From Once Upon a Time S:4 E:14

And she remembered her power source, so long ago forgotten, and dug it up from where it had been buried. It had broken long ago and she had been afraid to repair it, but she knew it was now time to make it whole again.

Her hands shook as she turned it over to be repaired, but the woman handled it with love and gentleness, even though to the average person it was just a cheap trinket.

She put it on her body and the power coursed through her, radiating out from her chest, and she felt like weeping from graditude and from missing this, missing the feeling of being whole and powerful.

And there was that which had fastened onto her neck long ago, holding the emotion in, preventing her from crying out. With this return to power it could no longer live there and it fought to stay, but in the end it came violently out of her mouth and she choked and sobbed and screamed. And then it was gone.

She now glowed and everywhere she went people commented on the trinket because it radiated that which was deep inside, which was kind and beautiful. And she started to connect with those she passed on the street and whose paths crossed her and a smile easily came with the sharing of love and connection. The world was a kind and friendly place of magic again.

She flew and danced but she was still sad. It seemed as much as she wanted to believe the love she had wasn’t true, that maybe it was. And she felt lonely. She would sometimes dance with other fairies but then she would go home and realize she didn’t have a family anymore. She connected, she healed but she wanted another to dance with, another to gaze into her eyes with love so she could gaze back with love.

She helped those she cared about but in the end there was still hole in her heart and she didn’t know how to heal that or even if she should. She couldn’t love again while here heart was open and bleeding. And somehow she just let it bleed because stopping it felt wrong. She still couldn’t speak of it because something sat on her throat, blocking her speech. She wanted to scream out to the world but no sound came out.